Lately I'm feeling like I'm either being selfish, or flat out not thought of. I'm speaking about my role here at home. Terry either works, fishes, sighs and complains here at home about his job, or plays video games with Zac. I put these things in order of largest to smallest percentage of time he spends on each per week...work and fishing being the most etc etc. This house was a wreck last week and I cleaned it up...all of it....ok, most of it! I had about 13 people over for a Pampered Chef party and we had good food which Terry provided, but really, that's all he did.
He doesn't paint, he doesn't clean, he doesn't do dishes for the most part unless I ask him and he only does his laundry, unless ours is in the way. He doesn't pick up after himself most of the time, he certainly doesn't pick up after the kids. He takes no pride in our home. Am I selfish? Is it too much to ask that our conversation at night be about something other than his shitty day at work or what lake he will be taking his poles to this weekend? I mean, really. Last night I was so dog tired (not that I've done a whole lot around here this week and I only cooked soup and grilled cheese last night) that after I got Lillie out of the tub, I climbed in bed with my book and let him fight with the kids at teeth time and bedtime and he had to put Zac in the tub without me. Never mind asking him to read a story to them or snuggle them in their beds...no, I guess that's something only I can do. Hell, Zac reads the bedtime stories to us now....how easy is that?
Anyway, I guess I'm feeling like I can only handle so much of my own husband....before I want to kick him in the ass and tell him to snap out of it and initiate something with me other than sex and something with the kids, other than video games. Life isn't about your job...and it sure as hell isn't about FISHING! I'm so sick of that word I could scream! Loudly! Enough for Karri to hear me in Wisconsin....yes, that loud!
So, am I selfish? Did you get enough of my one-sided story to make a decision? I know he works 65+ hours a week, but come on....he helped make these kids and buy this house, the least he can do is try to enjoy them, encourage and take pride in them, and HELP HIS WIFE SOMETIMES WITHOUT HER ASKING HIM TO!
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Yeah, you have every right to be frustrated! Scream loud girlfriend!
Sounds like he is in a bit of a rut and maybe even a bit of depression. Can you guys get away for a quick weekend - even if it is just an hotel in Columbus or something and you can talk to him about making some changes and being more present in your lives?
Hang in there!
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